Darko Lives

Music

I let my heart guide the rhythm
Set by the ever present melody,
Raining down from my subconscious intuition.

The anticipation
Will not hold me back.

Focus.

Punch it harder.
Hold on tighter.
Breathe in deeper.

Climax.

And fade into the perfection of it all.

- broken_optimist

Working on a lym, but it’s not done, so i don’t really have anything to post.  Tomorrow i’m either going to go to Viejas to play no limit hold ’em or seeing Jane, the 18 year old (now 19 year old) i dated.  Most likely it’s going to be hold ‘em because Xavier says he still wants to go.  I’m just going to have fun… but i know i’m going to be nervous.

My birthday was actually fun this year.  We went to dinner (15 plus a baby), and then bowled.  I think most everyone had a good time, including myself.  My only drink of the night was a white russian, and the most interesting gift i received was a massage gift certificate from Nicole.  I have the choice of either a swedish massage, or an asian acupressure massage.  I don’t think it will matter which one i choose, because either way it’ll be good.  And damn, do i need it. 

It is required that i clean the rest of stuff out of the spare room so that Randor can move in, so that is what i’ll do tomorrow.  Also, Jordan is making me a cake.

26

I am inspired.
  I just had an epiphany. 
I know that most people don’t notice me,
despite my desire to change the world.
I know it is because I am not average, and I am not normal. 
And you know what?  It doesn’t bother me one bit. 
In fact, I feel stronger, because I know I’ve found my place in the world. 
I know who I am. 
I have great things to accomplish.  
I know I will succeed. 
No more fucking around. 
I will find my love, and I will find my reason. 
I am 26 today.

- broken_optimist

Wish

this is the first day of my last days
i built it up now i take it apart climbed up real high now fall down real far.
no need for me to stay the last thing left i just threw it away
i put my faith in god and my trust in you
now there’s nothing more fucked up i could do
wish there was something real wish there was something true
wish there was something real in this world full of you
i’m the one without a soul i’m the one with this big fucking hole.
no new tale to tell twenty-six years on my way to hell.
gotta listen to your big time hard line bad luck fist fuck.
don’t think you’re having all the fun
you know me i hate everyone
wish there was something real wish there was something true
wish there was something real in this world full of you
i want to but i can’t turn back
but i want to.

- Nine Inch Nails (aka Trent Reznor)

This is how it was.  And maybe now there is no new tale to tell in my 26 years, but i’m going to make sure that there will be for the rest of it.  I am evolving, and i’m not looking back. 

There is no yesterday, only tomorrow.

It’s going to be perfect.

No vegas trip in store for me this weekend.  Instead i’ll just go to viejas and play some hold ‘em.  My birthday is gonna rock so freakin’ hard.  I’m going to dinner and then… i’m gonna roll.  And while i’m bowling… I’m drinkin’ white russians (but unfortunately, i don’t think that’s gonna happen)

I saw the kids today, and i gave them a few more riddles which they figured out:

A man’s naked dead body is found in the middle of the desert and in his hand is a small  stick.  What happened?

I’m tired, so i’m going to go watch futurama and go to sleep.

Quote of the day:
from Futurama

“Morbo: “Morbo will now introduce tonights candidates. Puny human
number one, puny human number two and Morbo’s good friend
Richard Nixon.”
Nixon: “Hello Morbo. How’s the family?”
Morbo: “Belligerent and numerous.”
Nixon: “Good man, Nixon’s pro-war and pro-family.”

Quote number 2 of the day:
from Futurama

“All I want out of life is to be a monkey of moderate intelligence who wears a suit… That’s why I’ve decided to transfer to business school!”  – Guenter the monkey 

Guess what today is!  It’s Valentine’s Day!  Yay!  Another meaningless holiday for dateless single people like myself.  That’s two years in a row.  But you know what?  I don’t care!  I’m having fun being single, and today i finalized my trip to New Zealand.  Hell yeah!  I will soon be able to take over the world with my army of hobbits which i will of course capture along the way.  Ssssssssshtupid fat Hobbitssssss!  And nasty orcsesss!  We will soon rule them, my preciousssssssss! 

Yes we will.  Now get back into my subconscious so no one else will have to put up with your obnoxious lisp.  I’ll let you out when we get to mordor.

(I think i’ve completely lost it)

Alright, because i’m a sucker for romance, i might as well put up a photo from my friends’ wedding.  I altered it slightly in an attempt to hide their faces, but i don’t think they’ll mind if i put up their picture.  After all, it is the day for lovin’.

Last night was fun.  I went to that pre-Valentine’s Day party, and there wasn’t really anyone i was interested in, but i had a good time just hanging out.  I think the weirdest thing was that one guy was dating this girl… but they were cousins through a marriage.  The joke was they were ”cousins with benefits”.  How disturbing is that?  And damn, that chick got around.  She was hitting on everyone at the party, including myself.  At one point she licked my neck, and asked if i liked it.  Uhhhhh…  no.  She was interesting to talk to, until she did that, but she’s not even close to being my type.  If Marilyn Manson had a sister, it would be her.  I’m not even kidding.  
              The rest of the night, Pehr, Xavier, and i joked around about women, swedes, and bad singers at the karaoke bar we ended up at.  And damn, some of them were so frickin’ painfully bad.  Pehr asked why they always sing bad songs at karaoke bars.  My answer:  So they don’t ruin the good songs.

Quote of the day:

me:  What the hell is that drink?
Xavier:  It’s a Magic Mammal!